Eight years is a long time to be doing something "wrong" and still getting something out of it. The original bujo method from Ryder Carroll actually started as a way for him to deal with his ADHD, and people forget he says to make it work for you, not the other way around. A to-do list that you hate looking at is just a chore, but a book you actually open every day for 8 years clearly did something for you. Maybe the "supposed to" part is the real problem here, not your habit.